and to put a little "it'll be alright" and "cinderella" onto all this....................

when i was 17 i was head over heels in love with a 15 year old girl, we dated for a year or so {no sex} just sore lips from sucking face for hours on end, lol..........then one day my dumb ass decides that she is to young for me and we broke up.................we went our seperate ways and had our own lives making mistakes, having good times, and bad times ..........................21 years later i married that little girl and i've never been happier in my life, my true "soul mate" if you will.................more importantly.............my best friend ................


so i say again, "if it's meant to be.....it will be"

not to say good and bad things don't and won't happen .............. but i wouldn't change a moment of my life it meant i wouldn't have found Beck again

good luck bud, sounds like things are going a lil better for ya

Boss

yep ................this is wife number 3..................i should have married her 20 some years ago, or at least stayed with her, i think i've subconsciously compared every woman ive ever been with to her................now that we're together, everything is just right ..................i know it sounds corny but it is what it is .....lol


Boss

just chalk it up to shitty expierience man .................like i said.............i may be totally happy now BUT it took me 21 years, 2 marriages and 250,00K to get here ..........and who knows in 20 years maybe "that" will come around for you............wouldn't that be some shit eh bud


you still runin a tank? or is tore down for now?

Boss

well.......... looks like everyone else is doin ok thats all that matters..... over the past 2 months or so i tried talking to a girl and we talked for prolly the past 2 months or so up until abotu 2 weeks ago, we txted constantly and out of nowhere she just stopped texting me and after about the 4th day i couldnt figure it out and then i saw on her facebook that she was "in a relationship" with another guy.... so as if that wasnt rough enough i started school back, kinda flat from that girl and instantly developed a crush on a girl in my histroy class... well today we talked a little bit, actually she talked to me and my heart was about to bust, coudlnt beat faster, from 12:20 to 12:22 i was the happiest guy in the world... easily..... it turns out shes exactly like me, works hard, mature, has pink highlights and i want blue highlights, even pays for school with financial aid like me and then she asked me to go over and help her get her books so now i was all reved up, inside my heart was in my brain and then she said that her bf was a history major and that he had alraedy grad college............ needless to say that dropped my heart somewhere on campus, i think im just going to leave it. I can see everyone saying taht I will get over it by tomorrow and such.... idk..... my heart is like a lung.. it inflates and deflates and i think it just deflated for the last time.....
is suicide a normal thought nowdays with people??

remember that key word 'appears' when thinking about that grass is greener thing. It really only appears greener. There's so much more I could be doing with my life if I wasn't devoting so much time and energy into my girlfriend of 2 years and 6 months. The single life and the couple life both have positives and negatives but instead of getting all down about females spend time with your fam and friends. Friends especially.. I can't remember the last time I hit the bar or felt comfy coming home and doing exactly what I wanted, when I wanted, however I wanted. Its all about sacrifices..